Dad, it has now been 3 years since you left us & would have been your 68 th anniversary 12/25/15, wanted to say Happy Anniversary & I'm sure you had a wonderful Christmas celebrating Jesus day of birth with Him in Heaven!!! I miss you even more today than when you left us, but have tried so hard to let mom experience more life here on earth with us taking here around the country a bit Nv.,Ca.,Or., Wa., Id., Ut., Co., NM.,Tx.. We just took her to Ca. for what I believe may be her last time to visit our family & relatives & her sisters Lawanda & Pat!!! Greg said he couldn't cone out to celebrate maybe her last Christmas & even though Dan was only a couple hours away, he couldn't come down to Lawanda's with an excuse to her that he hadn't been sleeping well, he actually told Kristi that he was where he should have been there in Chico with Megan & her family, he told mom he was going to Scott's!!! Dan's a lying SOB ands has tools me that mom is the one that drove you to yout passing!!! I'm doing all I can to keep from unloading on him, I'm sooooo pissed at him, no compassion whatsoever!!! I'm afraid mom is getting very tired now dad & is about ready to come be by your side!!! Can't get her to eat much alot of the time & she passed alot of her time with her eyes close scratching her head or lightly on her face & I believe she thinking of you & missing you while she does it!!! It's hard cause I catch myself bedding angry with her for scratching& know I shouldn't be rude, please forgive me@!! This has been alot harder than I expected, three major falls & hospital status on each & recovery time & therapy each time has taken a toll on her & me & Kristi & Daniel. At times has put my marriage on the unstable ground cause Kristi gets upset at times like mom did when you spent your time taking care of grandma Sarah!!! Bit I promised you dad I'd do my best to take care of her until she comes to be with you!!! That's what I will continue to do, please give me the strength to continue this job to its final day!!! You've come visited me once at my bedside but if I could see you againI I know it would give me strength to carry on!!! But I don't know if Good would allow more than one visit so if he doesn't please ask Him to give me a signof some sort.!!! We need to hey the heck out of this cold weather here in Utah & are planning on moving to Las Cruces, NM where it's warmer four is all but further away from family. I know that may seem wrong to you but Dan or Greg won't come to visit except once out of the 3 times she's was hospitalized!!! They hardly ever call either, I'm really disappointed in them both & hope you have seen & been watching with your own eyes!!! It s been so stressful on me that it's beginning to effect my blood psi & heart rate & general health.When it comes time for her to come be worth you, could you please ask God to take her quickly so she doesn't have to suffer!!! I love mom so & miss you sooooo badly, please give me strength Lord!!! Love you forever dad, hope I'm continuing to make you proud!!@ Until next time I write you or till wet mee again, big hugs&& kisses!!! Tell Grandma Sarah & Nancy &our relatives I miss them&will see them in time soon, <3 <3<3
rhumpher9a
3rd January 2016